Why I Like Old Things

This isn’t some kind of reverse-cougar love story, so if that’s what you’re after- I’m afraid I cannot help you. This story is about something quite different.

I am unable to pinpoint when it all started: when I caught an eye for all things dusty and rich with history. It goes back as far as I can remember. It sounds strange coming from a child of the 1990s, but I recall using a traditional type writer to write stories when I was very young. It was boxy and unpractical in a modern world, but I found tremendous novelty in using it to put my thoughts on paper. It typed with such vigour, and with fresh darts of ink.

Old music was also important to me, and in particular, The Beatles. The voices of Lennon and McCartney still warm me up on the inside, and I can mouth the words to most of their songs.

Years passed and my mother gave me a pair of brown leather shoes from the 1970s- around the time when she met my dad. I now drive a car from the late 1980s and have an eye for old-fashioned clothes. It’s now in my blood; a deep admiration and appreciation for the old.

I like how people are gentle when they handle old pieces of clothing, and how they can look back at things that were once mainstream – and either laugh out loud, or marvel with a hint of wonder. I like how old styles can be revived and brought back to life, almost as if they were brand new.

This is one of the reasons why I love thrift shops.

‘You must be saving a lot of money on clothes,’ my brother commented last week, as I strode past in a brown velvet coat from the 1960s.

The ‘saving-money’ thing is quite true and rewarding, but I mainly just admire the look of retro fashion.

There’s something very cool to me about thrift shops and their abundance of worn brown leather wallets and proud velvet coats; unashamedly flamboyant and graceful in their very existence. I have an arguably unhealthy collection of thrift-shopped bags, varying in shades of tan and degrees of wear.

But best of all, thrift shops implore you to try new things.

I was sifting through a rack of oversized coats earlier this week, before realising that I had been looking in the ‘extra large’ section. Having a smaller stature, I felt the urge to awkwardly back away and return to the smaller sizes available – as I possibly would in a regular store.

But this was not a regular store. There is nothing regular about thrift shops. Or, at least in the ordinary sense of the word.

So I glanced around me, noticing (unsurprisingly) that no one gave a fuck about what section of clothes I was browsing through. And I continued to look through the array of large coats. My eyes were immediately drawn to a pinkish-purple jacket that was lightly marked from years of wear and constructed from 100 per cent suede leather. It’s undeniably 80s-esque, satin lining made me smile, and I couldn’t help but pause and gaze.

It was a considerably larger size than what I usually wear. But for $12, I didn’t wish to take ‘no’ for an answer. I shuffled to the changing area, and pulled the curtain closed. I tried it on and rolled up each of the sleeves, one at a time. I pushed my shoulders back, held my head up high and looked myself right in the smudged thrift shop mirror.

‘Yeah,’ I whispered.

‘I like it.’

It had character. And it didn’t matter if strangers on the street thought it looked strange or old or worn. It was all of those things. But it was also effortlessly cool in my eyes…too much so for me to care what people thought of it.

It was not long before I was walking to the car with the warm jacket draped over my arm.

My car, my clothes, my music. They’re all reflective of the old, but unforgotten. Some people might turn their nose up at old coats and the fact that my car is older than I am. Others might accuse me of trying to fit some social stereotype of a hipster. But you’ll always be criticised by somebody out there, regardless of what you like.

So I figure it’s much too late to turn back now. And I’m too fond of my velvet coats to care anyway.

 

Free Time

It’s been a while since I last posted on my blog. And I have to say, I have no excuse. The past few months have consisted of the freest time I have ever had.

Something they don’t tell you when you enrol in an arts degree (journalism) is that you get a borderline-ridiculous amount of holidays. I finished my semester in early November last year, and I am STILL on holidays until late March. Perhaps they’re preparing us for the long period of time that we will be job-hunting after uni. Like ‘hey, this will probs be a shock to them…but there’s not that many jobs in journalism. Maybe if we give them more holidays, they won’t notice so much’. Ha! Good one, uni. I see what you’re doing.

It’s strange though, the things that you end up doing when you have so much free time. Of course, I still work at my part-time job on a regular basis and go out with friends a lot. But I’ve also rekindled my interest in getting good at the guitar, and I’ve started reading books and the news every day.  I also low-key want to learn how to skateboard, even though I do not look like someone who would skateboard.

Please allow me to explain.

I go to uni at the city, so I always see skateboarders glide past me on the streets. I used to roll my eyes about how many times I’ve almost been knocked over by a skateboarder, or how everyone has to shuffle out of their way. But now, I see skateboards in a new light.

They’re kind of genius. You can travel around the city so much quicker and everyone moves out of the way for you. It’s like this weird, 90s-esque sense of power. So I don’t care if it won’t suit my retro dresses and boots. I want in.

My only fear is dramatically falling off my skateboard. I feel like falling off a skateboard in a dress, in the city, would be scarring enough to make me never skate again. And then, years from now, I might pass a skateboard in the window of a shop. I’ll pause and smirk, and an underpaid film maker will create a montage of me rediscovering my love for skateboarding. And then, the footage will be banned in some countries because the world finds my skateboarding skills offensive.

But who knows. I might never actually learn how to skateboard. I might just want to try it because I’ve been on holidays for so long and I’m slowly slipping into madness.  Or maybe, having free time just opens your mind to trying new things that you hadn’t considered before.

One year.

Ah yes, it’s that time of year again.

Where prices shoot through the roof, and people start singing Mariah Carey songs in public. And not to be someone who says, ‘wow, this year has flown by!’…but wow, this year has indeed flown by (I had to say it).

This time last year, I had just finished my HSC and was getting amped up to go to my year 12 formal (prom). And then, what we Aussies call, ‘schoolies’. I remember getting my eyelashes tinted and regrettably, my eyebrows waxed. The lady who did my eyebrows left a cut that only four inches of make-up could cover. Thankfully for me, formal was just around the corner. And where else can you get away with wearing enough makeup to last a small village? Nowhere else, that’s where.

My main circle of friends and I had a unique ‘schoolies’ trip. We ate more sweets than alcohol, and rented a lake-side house in the middle of nowhere. The woman who owned the house looked at us like we had punched several of her cats in the face. This was partly because we were teenagers. And partly because we arrived late on the first day, after getting lost about seven times. Regardless, if that trip had to be summed up in some sort of cheesy 90s movie montage, it would feature us pointing at jellyfish at the beach, playing late-night board games and me being consistently shocked by the things I say in my sleep.

But from that trip until now, a lot has changed in my world.

I’ve experienced university, work and driving. I’ve learned a great deal about writing, the world and the types of people living in it. It’s great to hear people’s stories, and being a journalism student- I get the opportunity to do just that. Of course, there’s always a little bitter to accompany the sweet side of things. I have lost contact with some people I was close to a year ago. And I have met my fair share of rude and opinionated customers at my part-time job. A man I work with was given a week’s stress leave after telling a customer something along the lines of ‘go fuck yourself’. My initial thought was ‘hmm, now I know what will happen when I tell a customer to get fucked’.

I’m kidding, I wouldn’t risk my job to out-sass a rude customer. That kind of talk is for after hours.

But cold or unkind people are not those we should choose to remember. And they’re often not the people who deserve our time. It’s important to make time for people who make us feel good. Sometimes, that’s what it has to come down to.

Looking back on the past year, I’ve also realised that everyone is figuring something out. Whether it’s uni students figuring out if they like their degree or business people figuring out if they should apply for another job- even the most composed people seem to be worrying or stressing about one thing or another. I wonder if we ever stop figuring things out for ourselves. For the sake of spontaneity, I kind of hope not. Knowing exactly where you’re headed sounds like it could be a bit boring. Or at least I tell myself that.

Addiction: Orange is the New Black

Along with just about everyone, I’ve become an ‘Orange is the new black’ fanatic. 

When the opening theme song comes on, I find myself almost robotically mouthing all of the words. It’s funny how easy it is to binge-watch a TV series on Netflix. It’s like some sort of drug, feeding the inner hermit crab in us all.

I’m in the midst of binge watching season three and it’s got me thinking. What type of group I would fit into if I was in the TV show’s prison? Plus, in the world of ‘hypotheticals’, what would be something I could even go to the prison for doing?

After some brief contemplation, I’ve decided that if I had to go to prison for some reason- it would be because of one of three things.

1.) Stealing someone’s pug.

2.) Making such a bad pun that it is officially deemed illegal (this is most likely, I have to admit). Though I feel that some pun-loving dads would bail me out and I’d become some sort of pun leader.

3.) Trying to rap at a karaoke bar and consequently, impairing everyone’s hearing and faith in humanity

Okay, so not all of these would be punishable by imprisonment.

Though this is all hypothetical, so why should there be strict rules on how to answer?

As for the type of people I’d befriend in prison, I feel like it would be fun to be friends with Taystee and her group (Orange is the New Black reference). However, given the fact that I am a pale, Australian teenager- I feel that I would be more likely to bro out with Ruby Rose’s character about how strong our accents must sound to the predominantly American cast. I do imagine prison would be such a lonely place, so making friends could be a good idea. It’s weird imagining not talking to any close friends and family for a week, let alone some months or years at a time.

If you had to go to the Orange is the New Black prison for a hypothetical reason, what do you think it would be? And there’s no point saying because you want to hang with Ruby Rose. That response is justified, yet would never get you your own back story episode.

Mistakes make good stories

We each react to our own mistakes differently.

Some of us like to cover up mistakes with statements like ‘I only wore crocs that one time because of a dare’ and ‘it isn’t my fault my dog is eating your iPhone’.

While others enjoy a good ol’ fashioned self-pity session. This is often accompanied with a side of junk food and the hunger to be reminded of personal redeeming qualities.

In my case, I like to store my own conventionally embarrassing stories to share with people and laugh over at a later date. It’s possible that I am this way because it feeds the daydream that I’m in my own sitcom. I’ll tell a mildly climatic tale and my friends will respond with comments like ‘oh, classic Sineady-dee’ and ‘Wowzers, the shenanigans you get yo’self into’.

Ok, so that’s never how it goes.

I’m afraid my life isn’t a 1960s sitcom where everyone has overly-dramatic, possibly Texan accents. But hey, a girl can dream.

Regardless, we can’t forget that whatever the mistake is- whether you’ve spilt coffee all over yourself before a crowd of obnoxious faces, or started to crush on someone you think you shouldn’t have- we all make mistakes. There will always be that one someone who will hate on you or bag you out, but if you keep in mind that they have definitely (without a shadow of a doubt) made similar or even worse mistakes… you can develop the ability to just laugh at yourself or at the very least, not give a fuck about what strangers have to say about your silly mistakes.

In only the past week, I managed to delete my whole song library in an attempt to add ‘the wombats’ new album to my phone. As a result, I only listened to the wombats for a week. I like the wombats but sheesh, I also quite liked my 700 other phone songs. I’ve also stuttered the word ‘amalgamate’ live on air at a community radio station about three times in a row, during a serious news broadcast. But hey, I won’t be saying that word wrong on air again any time soon.

So not to sound like every grey-haired, high-trouser-wearing man in his sixties ever, but you really can learn from your mistakes. Or at least I hope so.

Sometimes mistakes can even be immediately funny and positive. In high-school, I tried out to be a sports house captain (don’t ask why, as I really don’t know). We had to do a grand ‘pick-me, I’ll totally try make us win carnivals’ speech. All was going smoothly until I stuttered on a word. Though this was no ordinary stutter. I stuttered the fuck out of this word. As a result, I semi-giggled and made a series of oddball noises in an unsuccessful attempt to re-focus myself and un-scramble my words. Upon realising how strange I had just verbalised my screw-up, the whole room of people started to crack up laughing. I laughed too, however, before hushing them and finishing my speech. Weirdly enough though, I think more people voted for me for that reason.

Not to burst that bubble of positivity but did I actually get selected as sports captain in the final round? Not-so-strangely, the answer is a sturdy no. However, though I was (and remain) not very sporty and lacked any motivation for my sports house…that election system was corrupt as all hell. Forget global conspiracy theories, somebody oughta investigate how school house captains are chosen at high-schools.

Next time you do something pretty embarrassing, maybe try to laugh it off. Every mistake is merely an opportunity for a great story. Or at least a funny one.

Independence Day

Independence Day 

Ok, so this blog post isn’t about a Will Smith blockbuster. As a fellow Will Smith admirer, I’m dearly sorry to anyone who read the title and now feels misled.

Rather, this blog post is about the power of a little independence.

Before graduating from high school last year, I felt pretty stoked to be entering the ‘real world’. Yet, I have to say, being a uni student isn’t exactly the same as living in the ‘real world’. At least not as much as I expected it to be. I’ve merely gone from the high-school student bubble to the uni student bubble. Even though I’ve started to make so much more of my own choices- I don’t yet feel like I’m amongst the big, real world of full-time workers, heavy taxes and mortgages. And rightly so. Rather, I’m in a bubble where some of my most serious concerns are assignment deadlines, thriving on caffeine and constantly ignoring the fact that I am slowly (but assuredly) drowning in my own student loan debt.

Regardless, I like this uni student bubble. In comparison to the uniform-wearing, 9 to 3 style of high school, I feel like a nervous bird that’s being released from a cage that has been rusting for quite some time. And no, it’s no coincidence that I just compared high-school to a cage.

Though gaining only little pieces of independence can go a long way. Only this year I’ve got my P’s driving license, a paying job and started to study something that I really do love. And already, I’m becoming more confident with navigating around the city by myself and doing little things I wouldn’t have enjoyed before- like eating comfortably by myself in crowded coffee shops.

Of course, with a surge of independence comes a whole lot of responsibilities for your own future. I, for one, do not have many concrete plans. Though I think that in a lot of ways, we are all just as vulnerable to the uncertainty of the future as each other. We can make as many plans as we like, but who knows what will actually end up happening, or if we will come up with new plans along the way? All we can do is try our best and see what the world serves us.

I know I will try to work with what I get, whether it be sweet or sour circumstances. With my new found independence, I’ll hope and try for sweet.

Feel fear and do it anyway

Its funny how sometimes the things you fear most can turn out to be nothing like you imagined.

As I was walking to class yesterday, I could see an obstacle on the path before me…I was about to pass a group of hungry birds savagely eating scraps from a bin.

Though i could somewhat identify with their ravenous feasting, resembling me when I get home from a long day of work- one thing cannot be denied. Part of me feared these birds. Having countless experiences with overly spontaneous, adrenalin junkie seagulls swooping at me and my food, I quickened my pace as I walked past them. The weird thing is that they didn’t even notice me, let alone swoop. I even felt sort of bad for one of the bigger birds avidly pecking at a brown paper bag full of (I’m hoping) food. I wished I could have ripped it open for the bird and then we could have had our own weird bird-human bonding moment. Though a little common sense and simple observation of their pointy beaks made me quite certain that I shouldn’t try to be their bro.

Some people fear things like heights, the ocean, spiders. In my case, I’m a little scared of all of the above. Though I’ve never actually been attacked by a hungry bird or eaten alive by a spider. In fact, hungry birds and spiders should probably keep their distance from me. I still recall accidentally hitting a bird with my car when I first got my license.

In my defence, this bird flew directly into my car and there was no way of stopping. I shrieked like a bad actress in a Japanese horror film when it happened though, and i felt so bad that my face remained frozen in a gasping freeze-frame for the rest of that car trip.

Although, these thoughts on how pointless some fears can turn out to be, reminded me of a book title that I admire: ‘Feel fear and do it anyway’.

Of course, this notion does not apply to all aspects of life. We certainly wouldn’t loudly poke and awaken a resting, wild bear- thinking ‘I’m so scared, but this book told me to push through and poke this angry bear anyway! Hurrah for dat adrenalin rush!’. Let’s not do that.

Rather, I’ll explain how I see this concept through using a simile about showering. Some people will push through their fears every day and accept the consequences with ease, like how some of us like almost scoldingly hot showers and endure feeling absolutely freezing when we get out.

Others, however, tend to succumb to their own fears more often than not, leading an arguably less risky life. There’s nothing wrong with this lifestyle. Though, it more so resembles a lukewarm shower, where there are no real consequences afterwards.

I imagine that most people would be a mix of both.

Though it’s interesting to ask yourself…How often do you think you feel fear and do it anyway?

Fancy Hotels

My friends and I recently stayed overnight at the fanciest hotel I have ever visited.

It had the lot: chandeliers, gold pillars, and elderly white people that potentially say ‘yes, quite’ and ‘I would fancy a glass of bubbly’ on an all-too-regular basis.

This was the type of hotel that you could step on the bare shower floor, without being mildly concerned about obtaining foot mushrooms. Though I rarely stay at hotels, I was there for my friend’s birthday night out in the city. This friend of mine mentioned how as a child, she loved the thought of living in a hotel. The long, winding hallways and of course, always having that weird temptation to buy an $8 glass bottle of water for room service.  Not that you actually would.

Perhaps I didn’t watch the ‘Home Alone’ movies enough as a child to completely construct a dream to live in a hotel. But I just can’t help but think of all of the potential horror movie scenarios when I’m at one. I especially remember scenes from ‘The Shining’ when I see the hotel elevators, which is odd because I kind of like regular elevators. And no, I do not have an irrational fear of hotels. Puh-lease, I’ve invested my irrational fears in other things instead. For example, my fear of boats and hungry seagulls.

I assure you though, these horror movie thoughts did not actually scare me, and they were almost immediately replaced by the urge to sleep like a hibernating bear in the hotel’s soft beds. After a night of yelling conversations in loud bars and sleepily dancing to eighties music, I was very keen to get some sleep. If I learnt anything from that night out, however, it is that:

1.) Dancing with friends while you’re half asleep can be just as fun as doing so when you’re tipsy. And it saves money! (or at least I’ll tell myself this)

2.) There is such a thing as being an accidental wingman/wingwoman. Not even on purpose, I assumed role of translator between some stranger at a bar and my birthday-girl-who-has-a-boyfriend friend. He was yelling phrases like ‘how are ya?!’ And ‘where are you from?’ which my oversensitive ears picked up and hers did not. Accordingly, I briefly became the small-talk translator between an utter stranger and my friend. Though the wing-womaning was unsuccessful for a number of reasons, it was a funny experience.

3.) Hotels that aren’t near train tracks are better than hotels that are near train tracks.

A few years ago, I booked in a hotel room for my family and me in Melbourne. It seemed very quaint and received good reviews. Plot twist: Our room was situated quite literally next to a set of train tracks, with a frequent passing-by of tooting trains. What did I learn from that experience? ‘Trip advisor’ can be an unreliable bastard and train sounds make me nauseous. Just kidding, about the second part anyway.

Childhood confessions

Some of the things we do as children are both hilarious and socially demented.

As a really young child, I was both an utter liar and thief. Don’t let the over-sized dimples and sulky tantrums fool you. I was quite the thug. Now don’t feel alarmed, neither of these attributes were ever exercised on a grand scale. I was never involved in an armed robbery or lying-before-the-law incident. Rather, I lied about things that had no reason to be lied about. Things like ‘my golden retriever is pregnant!’ and ‘I’ve tried blueberry martinis. They’re so yum’.

Getting myself into these weird white lies was always easier than dealing with the consequences. I recall, at the age of 7, over a year after telling my best friend of the time that my dog was pregnant, that she was simply not having puppies. Rather, she was just a fat dog. The latter part was not a total lie. My dog was and remains pretty well-fed. Shout out to all the chubby golden retrievers lovin’ life out there.

Though my random lie-telling as an infant never had any dramatic consequences, I am definitely glad that I grew out of that stage pretty quickly. Part of me wonders how I even managed to be such a liar, considering I am quite possibly the worst teenage/legally-an-adult liar in the country. If someone asks me a question about myself (in a situation that would be better to not tell the complete truth) I either blush, start grinning like an idiot or run out of any words to say and simply murmur something like ‘uhhh, I don’t know’. However, when I believe it is necessary to keep a secret, such as keeping the secret of a friend from an invasive stranger, I go into stealth mode and dodge questions like bullets. I’m a verbal ninja like that. This is much more lame than being a regular ninja, though wearing the ninja costume is still voluntary.

In regards to my claim that I was a little bit of a thief as a child, allow me to explain. Before starting primary school, I ‘permanently borrowed’ my sisters jewellery on a regular basis. One time, I even took my sisters necklace and wrapped it up as a gift for my friends birthday. Luckily for her, she realised what I had done before I gave the gift away.

However, once I started school, when I was five or six, I was obsessed with the plush toy key rings that came with McDonalds happy meals. I wanted to collect them all. It’s so cringe worthy to reminisce, but during class time I went outside to where all of our school bags were lined up and took them off of people’s bags, for my own keeping. And for your information, I got off completely scot-free! Keep in mind that this thankfully no longer represents who I am as a person. To bring it into perspective, at this point in my life I was also pondering entering a successful career path as a professional dog-walker or astronaut. In that order.

Regardless, to my primary school principal, I am very sorry that I lied directly to your face and shifted the blame to a ‘blonde child in mufti’ who did not exist.

Kind Regards,

The innocent-looking 7 year old who gave minimal fucks. Or perhaps, gave one too many fucks about McDonalds plush toys.

Acquired Taste

Pole dancing classes on a Tuesday morning.

Olives.

Abstract art galleries.

All of these have one thing in common. They are pursued by people with an acquired taste for each one. Not in a literal sense, wherein some of us love the taste of an abstract art gallery (whatever that means). But in a metaphorical sense.

An acquired taste is “one that is unpleasant on immediate experience or is likeable only after being experienced repeatedly.”

People often refer to things that are ‘an acquired taste’ as if it is a bad thing. Understanding the meaning, I’m not too sure why that is. Isn’t there something interesting about only enjoying a type of food or hobby once you have developed a personal taste for it? It almost adds a sense of entitlement.’

We don’t tend to think about it too much, but every little thing we do is an acquired taste in some way. In my family, though we share inevitable similarities, we are each pursuing completely different careers to pursue our own tastes. I’ve never been too great at maths, whereas I have always loved writing and the artsy-fartsy (as my dad would call it) subjects at school. For example, drama was my favourite subject during most of high school. Must I say more?

People who don’t share your acquired taste might not always understand it. They’ll question why you like reading or writing, and you’ll question why they like formulas and numbers.

We simply question what we don’t understand. Yet, imagine how boring the world would be if we all simply loved the same things and agreed on everything being to our taste? It’s perhaps a little more intriguing that we have different tastes in essentially every aspect of our lives, some more acquired than others.

Different tastes in food, music, love interests. You name it.

Though it can be a wonderful thing when you share such tastes with others, some of us are particularly fussier. A specific example would be Cher’s acquired taste in love interests in the film, ‘Clueless’.

“You see how picky I am about my shoes and they only go on my feet.”

Part of me wishes that we could put our acquired food tastes on our resume. In an interview, I feel that it would be partly relevant to address that I have managed to acquire a taste for anchovies: a food that I detested in my younger years. This shows how adaptable and open-minded I am *cue cheesy smile freeze-frame*. In the hypothetical situation that this method would not work in a follow-up interview, you could always just question why the interviewer isn’t open-minded towards salty tinned fish and perhaps ask if this reflects their lack of open-mindedness in general. You could then dramatically defame him/her as a close-minded racist, sexist or anchovie…ist.

Take your pick: based on your acquired taste, of course.

[Please detect sarcasm and don’t defame strangers who hate anchovies]